Lyrics of my life

Those who know me know that I always have a million songs or lines of music running through my head. Music has fashioned me into the person I am today, and even though I spend most of my time doing things unrelated to it these days, music still has great power over me. As always, when I listen to music I think about the deeper meaning behind the notes and/or behind the lyrics. Here are a few pieces of songs that I’ve been thinking about lately and that to some degree define my current situation in life.

And so I'll read a book 

Or maybe two or three
I'll add a few new paintings to my gallery
I'll play guitar and knit
And cook and basically
Just wonder when will my life begin?...
And I'll reread the books
If I have time to spare
I'll paint the walls some more,
I'm sure there's room somewhere.
And then I'll brush and brush,
and brush and brush my hair
Stuck in the same place I've always been.
And I'll keep wondering and wondering
And wondering and wondering
When will my life begin?

I have often dreamed of a far off place
Where a great warm welcome will be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer when they see my face
And a voice keeps saying this is where I'm meant to be
I will find my way
I can go the distance
I'll be there someday
If I can be strong
I know every mile will be worth my while
I will go most anywhere to feel like I belong

I drew my line across the sand
And set my flank in no-man’s land
But here I am, the one-man band
With a song that's meant for two

I am floating away
Lost in a silent ballet
I'm dreaming you're out in the blue

And I am right beside you
Awake to take in the view
Late nights and early parades
Still photos and noisy arcades
My darling, we're both on the wing, look down and keep on singing!
And we can go anywhere
Are you there?
Are you there, or are you just a decoy dream in my head?
Am I home or am I simply tumbling all alone? 

Are you there?

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up then I let myself down
I might have to wait, I’ll never give up
I guess it's half timing and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come outta nowhere and into my life
And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility
Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And promise you kid I'll give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get
I just haven't met you yet